Gaming and Addiction!

Every now and then, I get addicted to a new game! I guess that’s maybe because it makes you focus on one thing, one goal and accomplishing that goal! it all started back from the days of AX-170 Computer (a.k.a Computer Sakhr), a Kuwaiti computer that was targeting the Arab community. I can’t recall the exact date of when we got that one, but I remember being fascinated by the drawing tool in it :).. by the way, we still have it!


After that, we used to play on the Family Atari, and boy, that was something! I guess I enjoyed the car racing game the most, it was like really big thing! the canon that shoots monkeys and the airplanes one!… memories! I can’t remember how many times the hand was ruined and I guess this one ended up being sold to junk collectors!


I can’t remember what came first, the Nintendo games or Microsoft 95. My head is missed up around this era, however, for the Nintendo game, Super Mario was the hit, an epic game that was and still my favorite. Even my Mom played that game! we used to play against each other at house and against cousins and uncles and we were professional players! we would reach the final stage in the game without losing any soul! those days were the golden age!


When we first bought Windows 95 and later on Windows 98, it was all about games! I can’t remember how many games we played on these two! from Tomb raider to Fifa 98, Need for Speed the initial versions. We were pro! proud ones. I used to beat the hell out of my two brothers and it was lots of fun! in Fifa, my brothers hated playing against me as I was a real pro and never left a chance to tease them about me ‘the girl’ beating them 😀




Add to that, Windows 2000, XP and moving forward! My favorite games would be Need for Speed all versions, Call of Duty all versions too! Fifa all versions, Tennis and the great Grand Theft Auto GTAaaaaa 😀

Play station and Nintendo Wii! we have a Nintendo Wii at the office and I spent half an hour trying to connect it to the TV and make it working. Once it was flashing there on the screen I was so full of myself 😀 but then I found that the controllers were not working so!




My latest obsession is this! I’m all wrapped up around this and I’m improving over time and bought a bada** bike =D


Another one that is similar to this and yup, it is a car racer 😀


And the Adrenaline rush we are having when we play Despicable Me!

Despicible Me 2

And this one but… MEH! I didn’t go beyond the first Island I was not really hooked up to it!


Board Games!

Yes, these are my ultimate obsession I guess! It is rare to find someone who enjoys them but I do a lot! and wish to find someone who share my same obsessions 😥





My Favorite, Ticket to Ride,




top that with any card game, I’m all up for it 🙂 Am I a gaming addict, well.. I don’t think so.. yet O_o


Am I socially retarded?


It occurred to me a while ago that I’m socially challenged and it doesn’t bother me to be honest. However, what brought it up now is because my friend’s wedding is in two days and the only thing I was thinking of whether to reach there a little bit late to avoid the awkward silence or type of chat my friends will be talking to me about or not!

Now, I seriously find it difficult to sit down with my friends and gossip or engage in conversations about their struggle with their kids or spouses and this kind of yada yada chitchat!

Add to that, I find it even more difficult to talk about social stuff and that’s why most of my friends end up asking me about my work and make me feel even more bored with this!

I guess this stopped bothering me overtime, I accepted the fact that I can be challenging when it comes to social conversations. I tried many times to change 🙂 I can talk to you about any topic from religion to politics, art, movies, psychology, technology, science you name it! I can lecture you on the importance of communication and connection and the challenges this interconnected world is bringing, however, I will not going to be able to tell you that your shoes looks nice or is this an amazing bag, what brand is it!

Also, I go crazy when I find someone who I can connect with and talk! I go hyper insane and will loose control over the way I speak and think ending up pushing these people away.

I guess some stuff can’t be learned reading a book or watching a talk on YouTube. Nevertheless, I’ll end up going to the wedding early and read a book on kindle while praying the bride won’t take forever taking pictures with the groom! I’ll never change obviously O_o

سلك السماعة – مصطفى ابراهيم

الكثيرون لا يلقون للشعر العامي أو الغير موزون أي قيمة بحجة البلاغة الأدبية وغيرها من الحجج التي تساق كل مرة في وجه أي بوادر كانت صغيرة أو كبيرة للتغير. لكن عموماً، بما أن الجميع أتفقوا على أن يختلفوا، مقطع قصيدة سلك السماعة من أجمل الأشعار العامية بلاغة برأيي وأعترف أيضاً أنني من المتهمين بالتأثر بالثورة المصرية بغض الطرف عما ألت اليه الأحداث اليوم!


الدنيا اساساً م الاول ..
شيء يشبه سلك السماعة ..
يتلعبك منك ف ثواني ..
و عشان يرجع مفرود تاني ..
لازم تتعذب و تعاني ..
و تفكه ف أكتر من ساعة ..

Medianeras: one more time!

Turn the English subtitle on the video to understand the thing!

When I first watched this movie (philosophical view of life) years ago, I was stunned! for a developer whose life is shaped and guided by the online world, it was an irony that some Argentinian director sat one day and thought of all of this!

From the great intro above to the last scene in the movie, I was glued! how often you can find your life depicted on the screen (well, without the love story part!) and how often a screenwriter can relate to you on the creation level!

Every time I watch this movie (watched countless times already) I found myself drowning in my loneliness and despair thinking, how this wired interconnected world is the only thing that ever got me! I lay down staring at the ceiling thinking am I an arrogant person who can’t communicate with others or I’m just a developer who finds it a little bit difficult to relate to others on the real side and hence lack the sense of connection and belonging!

When Brene Brown told us that vulnerability is the source of all the courage in the world, she was totally right! she nailed the thing down, however, what she didn’t realize is that people do not want to connect or relate to the true you or the real you! they want to relate to the nice enhanced version of you that doesn’t feel desperate or depressed! that doesn’t know how to laugh except with those they truly care for and that sometimes they may fail to connect but they desperately wish to communicate and connect!

Synopsis from the film

Martin is a phobic in recovery process. Little by little he manages to step out of theisolation of his one-room apartment and his virtual reality. He is a web designer.

Mariana just broke up after a long relationship. Her head is a mess, just like the apartment where she takes refuge. Martin and Mariana live in the same street, in opposite buildings, but they never met.

They walk through the same places, but they do not notice each other.

How can they meet in a city of three million people?

Urban loneliness.

Buenos Aires.

What separates them is what brings them together.

2016 Movies List


As my movies list has increased over the years, this is a pathetic attempt to track what I have watched starting this year and hopefully one day I can trace back all the movies over the year to monitor how my taste has changed over time!

Watched movies during 2016:

  1. The Nightmare: (2015), Documentary, Horror about “A look at a frightening condition that plagues thousands; sleep paralysis”.
  2. Whiplash: (2014), Drama, Music about “A promising young drummer enrolls at a cut-throat music conservatory where his dreams of greatness are mentored by an instructor who will stop at nothing to realize a student’s potential”.
  3. The Revenant: (2015), Adventure, Thriller about “A frontiersman on a fur trading expedition in the 1820s fights for survival after being mauled by a bear and left for dead by members of his own hunting team”. (highly recommended).
  4. Spotlight: (2015), Biography, Investigative Journalism about “The true story of how the Boston Globe uncovered the massive scandal of child molestation and cover-up within the local Catholic Archdiocese, shaking the entire Catholic Church to its core”. (highly recommended).
  5. The Gallows: (2015), Horror about “20 years after a horrific accident during a small town school play, students at the school resurrect the failed show in a misguided attempt to honor the anniversary of the tragedy – but soon discover that some things are better left alone”.
  6. Creed: (2015), Drama, Sport about “The former World Heavyweight Champion Rocky Balboa serves as a trainer and mentor to Adonis Johnson, the son of his late friend and former rival Apollo Creed”.
  7. The Intern: (2015), Comedy about “70-year-old widower Ben Whittaker has discovered that retirement isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. Seizing an opportunity to get back in the game, he becomes a senior intern at an online fashion site, founded and run by Jules Ostin”.
  8. Concussion: (2015), Biography, Drama, In Pittsburgh, accomplished pathologist Dr. Bennet Omalu uncovers the truth about brain damage in football players who suffer repeated concussions in the course of normal play.
  9. Deadpool: (2016), Comedy, Action about “A former Special Forces operative turned mercenary is subjected to a rogue experiment that leaves him with accelerated healing powers, adopting the alter ego Deadpool”.
  10. London has Fallen: (2016), Thriller, Crime about “In London for the Prime Minister’s funeral, Mike Banning discovers a plot to assassinate all the attending world leaders”.
  11. Fathers and Daughters: (2015), Drama about “A Pulitzer-winning writer grapples with being a widower and father after a mental breakdown, while, 27 years later, his grown daughter struggles to forge connections of her own”. (highly recommended).
  12. Room: (2015), Drama about A kidnapped mother and son escape from a room in which they have endured imprisonment for the entirety of her son’s life. Upon breaking free from its confines, they experience a dramatic homecoming; provoking insight into the depths of imagination and the extent of a mother’s love. (highly recommended).
  13. The Forest: (2016), Horror, A woman goes into Japan’s Suicide Forest to find her twin sister, and confronts supernatural terror.
  14. Backtrack: (2015), Drama, Mystery and Thriller about Psychologist Peter Bower’s life is thrown into turmoil when he discovers a strange secret about his patients. Risking his own sanity, Peter delves into his past to uncover a terrifying secret which only he can put right. Backtrack is a spine-chilling story from the acclaimed writer-director, Michael Petroni.
  15. Short Term 12: (2013), Drama about a 20-something supervising staff member of a residential treatment facility navigates the troubled waters of that world alongside her co-worker and longtime boyfriend. (highly recommended).
  16. Liberal Art: (2012), Comedy and Drama about 30-something Jesse returns to his alma mater for a professor’s retirement party, he falls for Zibby, a college student, and is faced with a powerful attraction that springs up between them.
  17. Zootpoia: (2016), Animation and action about a city of anthropomorphic animals, a rookie bunny cop and a cynical con artist fox must work together to uncover a conspiracy.
  18. Escaflowne The Movie: (2000), Animation about A grim retelling of the television series “The Vision of Escaflowne”.
  19. End of Watch: (2012), Crime, Drama and Thriller shot documentary-style, this film follows the daily grind of two young police officers in LA who are partners and friends, and what happens when they meet criminal forces greater than themselves. . (highly recommended).
  20. Locke: (2013), Drama, Ivan Locke, a dedicated family man and successful construction manager, receives a phone call on the eve of the biggest challenge of his career that sets in motion a series of events that threaten his carefully cultivated existence.
  21. The Huntsman: Winter’s War: (2016), Action, Adventure and Drama about As a war between rival queen sisters Ravenna and Freya escalates, Eric and fellow warrior Sara, members of the Huntsmen army raised to protect Freya, try to conceal their forbidden love as they combat Ravenna’s wicked intentions.
  22. Momento: (2000), Mystery and Thriller about A man creates a strange system to help him remember things; so he can hunt for the murderer of his wife without his short-term memory loss being an obstacle.
  23. The Thing: (2011), Horror, Mystery and Sci-Fi about At an Antarctica research site, the discovery of an alien craft leads to a confrontation between graduate student Kate Lloyd and scientist Dr. Sander Halvorson.
  24. The Departed: (2006), Crime, Drama and Thriller about An undercover cop and a mole in the police attempt to identify each other while infiltrating an Irish gang in South Boston.
  25. Good Will Hunting: (1997), Drama about Will Hunting, a janitor at M.I.T., has a gift for mathematics, but needs help from a psychologist to find direction in his life.
  26. The Boy: (2016), Horror, Thriller and Mystery about An American nanny is shocked that her new English family’s boy is actually a life-sized doll. After she violates a list of strict rules, disturbing events make her believe that the doll is really alive.
  27. Emilie: (2015), Horror and Thriller about A couple’s replacement babysitter turns out to be more than they bargined for when she subjects their kids to a series of twisted activities.
  28. Blue Jasmine: (2013), Drama about A New York socialite, deeply troubled and in denial, arrives in San Francisco to impose upon her sister. She looks a million, but isn’t bringing money, peace, or love.

All The Way – a Charles Bukowski Poem

If you’re going to try, go all the way.
Otherwise, don’t even start.
This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind.
It could mean not eating for three or four days.
It could mean freezing on a park bench.
It could mean jail. It could mean derision.
It could mean mockery–isolation.
Isolation is the gift.
All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it.
And, you’ll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds.
And it will be better than anything else you can imagine.
If you’re going to try, go all the way.
There is no other feeling like that.
You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire.
You will ride life straight to perfect laughter.
It’s the only good fight there is.

A Day in London: Closing Chapter


So by now, you already know that I’m so in love with London! it is one of my long life childhood dreams that came to life in a matter of one day!

If you have been traveling looking for historical places, you will always end up riding one of these hop-on-hop-off buses and it was definitely a life saver. My next stop was Oxford circus, and man wow! the lighting after spending sometime in the Tube and all the shinny shops and expensive places, they were all screaming and I got lost inside the people’s wave getting off the underground.

So I found a small souvenir cabinet that sells the tickets for a hop-on-hop-off bus called “BIG BUS B London” with a great selection of places. I selected the following route: starting from Oxford Circus through Hamleys to Piccadilly Circus, Haymarket, Trafalgar Square, Craig’s court, Whitehall and decided to hop off at Westminster Bridge.


Wow! just wow, seeing Downing St. and Westminster Palace with the gorgeous Perpendicular Gothic style is just a mind blowing experience. Big Ben was standing out there shouting to me and I just enjoyed myself to the fullest.

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The Hop-on-hop-off tickets gives you a free ride on a cruise across the Thames river. By the time I enjoyed myself looking across Westminster bridge, enjoying the sun on a cold December day, I was full of joy, full of life 🙂

I kept wandering around the Eye of London area. Went in to see if I can secure a ride but hell no… the lines didn’t end, long lines of people ahead of me and there was no way to anticipate how long this waiting will take. The financial manager in the hosting company I visited in Cardiff advised me not to go to these well-knows sites as it will consume the whole day, his parents waited a whole day to get into the Shard! So I took his advise and weaved myself outta the place.

The cruise was just waiting for me and I took my late breakfast on the boat. The most confusing experience like these are usually how to capture these moments through the camera and looking around for real through your own eyes. I’ve gotta say, since I started taking pictures whenever I traveled, I felt that I didn’t enjoy the thing as much as before. Lots of these memories had gone and what is left is these memories on my laptop! they would say that this is the main reason for photography, however, I know as you know for sure, we are missing a lot looking around through a camera lens.

Most the picture I took inside were not that Awesome, however, the boat narrator was really amazing and thanks to him for all the information I learned cursing the Thames. The route we took was: London Eye, Cleopatra’s needle, Waterloo Bridge, Royal National Theatre, Millennium Bridge, Shakspeare’s Globe Theatre, Southwark Bridge, London Bridge, The Monument, The Shard, City Hall, Tower of London and lastly The Tower Bridge.

I went down at the Tower of London and started pondering around. The sun was really amazing and I was feeling cozy and comfy wandering around taking pictures like crazy. I decided not to get into the castle but wandering looking at the river bank and moving towards the Tower Bridge. What I found was a little sad story! After taking some selfie pictures, I forgot to switch the camera back and since I developed a habit of taking pictures walking without looking actually through the camera, I ended up with lots of half pictures of myself and half an eye!

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Walking towards the Tower bridge, you would start seeing the world in a different way. I guess I always loved looking at water (given that Jordan has water resources problems, seeing any form of water is always a blast, something not much people cherish to have!). The view from the top is stunning, I started to video tape this trip, it is definitely one of the best adventures I gone through so far!

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On the other side of the bridge, I went to a get some coffee and wandered back to the cruise and went back again to the underground through the Temple station. Back again on the run and it is almost 4 o’clock running around these places. My next stop was, yup, of course, I won’t miss it! It was the Kings Cross 😀

After jumping between a number of trains (it became my joy to wander around the Tube from one train to the other :D) I finally reached my destination. After passing some security checks, I kept walking and walking to find myself passing towards the trains area! I felt stupid for a moment before motioning back and asking some of the security guards about the place! and here I was, finally standing at Platform 9 3/4!

After waiting for almost an hour, my turn came to take a picture behind the wheels 🙂 it was again a dream came true 🙂 luckily, these guys have a shop just next this platform, where I got a Gryffindor scarf. It was really expensive (£32.99) so it was the only thing I get from there. However, no regrets, I wear it till now almost everyday to work 🙂

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I couldn’t resist the attempt to go out while the day is wrapping up and the night is falling. On the way back to Paddington station, I stopped once again at the Sherlock Holmes museum and bought more stuff 😀 (I told you I became an expert)

It was really AWESOME meeting you London! Insha’Allah, I will visit you once again in my life 🙂